Archive for June, 2007

30
Jun
07

it’s finally over.

He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I’m grown,
And in this grey, in this blue shade
My tears dry on their own.

– Amy Winehouse

Will be back when I’m healed.

xoxo

30
Jun
07

tears dry on their own.

Here’s a note to someone.
You can only compare your relationship to mine until a certain extent my dear. Do bear in mind that just because our relationships have a few similarities, it doesn’t mean that I have to do every single thing the way you and your other half do.

I have so many other things on my mind, so please just don’t assume one little talk would change things. Try being in my shoes for one day and you’ll see.

I made and effort to mend things, I asked you didn’t I?
I don’t even know what went wrong.
But I’m assuming it’s something to do with something which happened a few days ago. But it might also be about what I read recently. Probably both.
Yes, that’s what happens when you don’t explain to people what’s wrong, they draw assumptions.
I’m taking the sister’s advice, “Just ignore her la“.

You could’ve replied even if you were angry you know.
Thanks anyway. I love you, still.

What’s done is done.
On a much much happier note, I was out with the siblings, Faiz, Lynn and Abg Lan awhile ago. We had dinner after which all of us were stuffed like hell, all we could think of was going to bed. Hmm, maybe I was the only one who felt that way. I could barely walk.

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Dinner ended at around half an hour before midnight, and after that, the five of us, minus Abg Lan, watched Transformers ! It was soooo good I tell you. You people must go watch okay. Unless you’re allergic to machines or loud noises. I was in awe, felt like I was a kid again. The whole storyline was okay la, the awe-inspiring actions and flawless effects were what made the movie good. God, I sound so lame. 😀

And Josh Duhamel being super hot just adds to all that fun. *drools*

I’m so gonna watch it again. With the boyfriend, I hope. 🙂

Am still not done with my proposal.
I’m a bit put off by the sms I received last weekend.
But ergh, I shouldn’t let it affect my proposal.
Hello, five credit hours, Melissa. *slaps myself*
Hmm. 😐

I miss the boyfriend. Terribly.
I miss Akey !
I miss Diana.
I miss the G-list.
I miss Mummy. 😥

Okay, so I miss everyone la, kesimpulannya.

I like Amy Winehouse. 🙂

Goodnight people, here’s to me having nice good sweet hot dreams with Josh (Duhamel). 😀

xoxo

29
Jun
07

^wings of forgiveness.

I just want you to know
After everything that we’ve been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
That I still love you

Had to go
Across the water
Just to find
What was here in my heart all along
Spend so much time
Trying to be right
That I was dead wrong

If Nelson Mandela can forgive his oppressors
Surely I can forgive you for your passion

You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

Had to run
To the arms of curiosity
Just to find
What was here in my life all along
I had found that the art of simplicity
Simply means making peace of your complexity

If Gandhi can forgive persecution
Surely you can forgive me for being so petty

I’m only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

I’ve searched for romance
Flowers and affection
What I found is a lesson
Of what love really is
Found the game of love is
Not about how much you can take
In fact authentic love is about
How much you can give

After everything that we’ve been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I forgive you
(thank you for teaching how to give)
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I’m better cuz you taught me how to give

I took a swim
In the sea of guilt and misery
To find myself in an island
In the middle of nowhere
In my solitude
I asked to know the highest truth
And what I was told
Is to let own self be true

If Jesus can forgive crucifixion
Surely we can survive and find resolution

Let’s keep it moving
Let’s shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high, and fly high
Let’s keep it moving
Let’s shake free this gravity of commitment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

After everything that we’ve been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I still love you
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I’m better cuz you taught me how to give

(India.Arie)

xoxo

26
Jun
07

dear anyone.

Looks like someone else needs anger management classes more than I do.

anyone | dontrgiveadamm@yeehaa.com | IP: 124.82.85.143

yup!!u sure need it. stop being so ridiculous. if u think that u are the only one who has problems, then just give up n kill urself. u know what? nobody will miss u. i repeat, NOBODY!!! u know what?u dont have to be a GOD to judge anybody.

June 26, 4:02 PM — [ Edit | Delete | Unapprove | Approve | Spam ] — dinner.

Was this an attempt to break me?
To be honest, I did break, to the extent I actually burst. Burst out with laughter! 😆

First and foremost, thanks a whole bunch for dropping by MY blog (you know the place where I write down MY thoughts, and how I feel, be it MY anger, MY frustration or MY happiness?)

Secondly, I obviously do not think that I am the only one who has problems. I know that there are others out there suffering worse.
But you don’t even have the slightest idea about what my family and I are going through right now, do you? I’m sorry you’re not worthy enough to know but just bear in mind that if you do not know me in person, how can you say that I’m being ridiculous when I have never thought that way (that I am the only one with problems) at all. Just because you’ve read a few angry posts of mine? You’re implying as if no one should get angry, and should only post happy thoughts on their blog.
Even if you did know me in person, you’re trying to say you can read people’s thoughts?

Thirdly, do you even know the people around me well enough for you to say that nobody, I repeat, NOBODY (!!!) will miss me? I believe I know them better than you do and I’m happy to say that they will surely miss me IF I give up and kill myself like you suggested. 🙂

Lastly, you think you don’t have to be a GOD to judge anybody? Really? You must be a believer of Atheism. No, no I have nothing against Atheism but it’s really sad that you actually feel you are of high enough status and nobility to judge others. 😕
I’m so sorry you believe that way.

Dear Anyone, thanks again for making me laugh. 😆
I hope you will never have to go through the things I am going through right now.
I hope you find peace with yourself before you start talking rubbish on other people’s blogs again. 🙂

xoxo

25
Jun
07

sms.

I am naturally a boring person.
I make stupid jokes.
I feel uncomfortable and inferior around people.
I rarely see eye to eye with people.
I prefer sms-ing than talking on the phone.
I hate being forced to eat.
I breakdown easily.
I never learn.
I am always volatile.
I talk rubbish.
And when I don’t feel like talking at all, I can just sit with you and be silent. I would be fine. But I don’t think you would.
So don’t bother calling, texting or asking me out, okay?
Thanks.

xoxo

25
Jun
07

hit.

There she was, sitting right in front of me on the train.
She had the exact same big glasses on.
Her clothes. Her shoes. Her lips. Her short brown hair.
How come she looked so much like you, Mummy?
The both of us realized that I was staring at her.
She was getting uncomfortable.
What I didn’t realize was that my tears were already streaming down my cheeks.
I had to gather strength to force myself to look away.

Time hasn’t heal.

xoxo

25
Jun
07

dinner.

I seriously need anger management classes.

xoxo




Peek – A – Boo !

NONSENSICAL THOUGHTS OF MINE.

This is mine. Not yours.
So keep your censuring to yourself, thank you.

DON'T JUDGE ME.
YOU'RE NOT GOD.

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