half lives.

Moving back here.
See ya’ll there. 🙂

xoxo

let me let go.

Breathe, and let go.
Now where have I heard that before ?
😕

xoxo

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i miss snapping happy photos.

I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.
I miss snapping happy photos.

😦

xoxo

boo !

Where the hell did my boo berries and boo bears categories go ? 😡

xoxo

pau.

They say, friends come and go. Only true ones stay.

You came and you went.
I admit it hurt a lot at first.
It was sad. But only for a brief moment.
Did it ever cross your mind whether it was worth it ?
Take a good look at yourself.
Ask yourself.
Who do you know better ?
Let me rephrase that, who did you know better ?
Did it ever occur to you that everyone has a right to their own lives?
Which means only they, themselves should make the decisions in their life. Not anyone else.

Just so you know, I have no regrets.
At least I really know who to rely on and who to disregard.
Here’s to growing up.
🙂

xoxo

oh nick cannon!

It’s 4 am and I’m watching Drumline.
Ina’s on the phone with her boyfriend and Yamin just went to bed.
We were out having coffee earlier.

I’m still having diarrhea.

Oh, Pojie just woke up for sahur.

I miss my boyfriend.

xoxo

yogurt.

Woke up today with diarrhea and runny nose.
Was severely dehydrated until berbuka time.
Okay okay, not severely la. Almost severely? 😀
I am sick. I feel awful. I look awful.
Blergh.

xoxo

800mg.

Remember this?
Or this?
I almost forgot about all of that.
Until yesterday.
Sigh.

xoxo

jodoh.

Life, and it’s many mysteries scares me sometimes.
You don’t know what’s gonna happen next. Tomorrow or the day after.
A good friend said to me, “Why worry about things that have yet to happen? Live everyday to the fullest.” 🙂
That’s what I am gonna try to do.
That’s what we all should do.

You’ve gotta have faith.
Allah knows what’s best for you.
And me.
For all of us.
🙂

xoxo

knocked up.

Ramadhan starts tomorrow and somehow this time I’m feeling pretty excited.
And I’m not only looking forward to the fasting part of it.
Hmm, InsyaAllah.
🙂

Smelly and I watched Knocked Up at Cineleisure, Damansara last Sunday night. I liked it. 🙂
We bowled while waiting for the the movie to start. It’s no surprise that I lost. 😛
Smelly, we need more photos together. This is an order. 😈
It’s so unlike me to bring my camera along but just let it stay in my bag. Ergh.
Remind me next time, pretty please. Hehe.

By the way, I’d kill to have a HOT body like Katherine Heigl.

Some of my classmates, housemates and I took a drive to Bagan Lalang for dinner last night. It took us almost two hours to reach there as we weren’t really familiar with the road. On the way, all of us were complaining of hunger and how far the place was. But it was worthwhile I tell you, as the food was delicious ! Very. 😀

With Yamin and Huda in the car. 🙂

My housemate, Atia and my roomie, Ina. That’s my mouth up there, nak menyibuk tak jadi. 😛

This is where we had dinner.

Homies ! 🙂

Starving people pre dinner.

Happy people post dinner. 😀

This is where we dirtied our pants. 😀

See the round spots on our pants? That’s what I meant when I said we dirtied our pants. 😀

Told you it was worthwhile ! 😀

It was sad that Pojie couldn’t come along though. 😦

Gosh.
I am so freaking fat !
😐

Today, the ex’s sister and mum called to let me know that his grandma and grandpa was involved in an accident yesterday and that they were warded at HTAR.
I so wanted to go and visit them.
Smelly actually offered to bring me there. And he did.
I know it was hard and awkward for him to actually be there watching me with the ex’s family.
I felt bad for putting him through such a thing.
I should have taken the bus. Stupid me.
Sigh.
I never imagined that my boyfriend would meet my ex boyfriend’s family. Like that. 😐
But the mum told him to take good care of me. 🙂

Sigh.

Have a blessed Ramadhan everyone. Happy fasting ! 😉

xoxo

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crush.

You’re reading this.
But you’re not really reading.
You think you understand.
But you actually don’t.
You seem to think you know.
But you don’t have a single clue.

With me it’s always something else.
It’s not always just that.
Or just this.

One day at a time.
I need to keep reminding myself.
No, wait. I can’t.
I need to take one hour at a time. Maybe one minute at a time.
Ergh.
One second maybe ?

I feel suffocated.

I have had plans.
I have had dreams.

But everything is in His hands.
I have learnt to accept that.
Can you ?

Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight and it’ll crush, hold it too loose and it’ll fly away.

I have come to realize that I don’t only hate being forced to eat.
As a matter of fact I despise being forced to do anything.
Period.
Who does anyway ?

………

What was spoken was uncalled for.
That was very insensitive of you.
All this is making me feel a bit apprehensive.

Daddy would tell me to recite Surah An-Nas in times like these.

I should pray more often.
Honestly, that’s only time I really feel at peace.

Darn it.
I have drifted so far away.
It isn’t too late to come back, right ?

Don’t answer that.
That’s not for you to decide.

Woah.
Time out, Melissa.
😐

xoxo

amiss.

I rejected an invitation to go karaoke-ing.
Karaoke. You know, where they sing.
Sing. You know, la la la la la la la la la.
Singing is my life passion.

There’s something really wrong with me.

xoxo

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^breakdown.

Well I guess I’m trying to be nonchalant about it
And I’m going to extremes to prove I’m fine without you
But in reality I’m slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile gradually I’m dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
Cause I don’t want to reveal the fact that I’m suffering
So I wear my disguise till I go home at night and turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry...
-Mariah Carey

xoxo

pikachu.

These feelings.
Are still here.
I am still bleeding.
WHY ?
😥

xoxo

puerile.

Lene and I just got back from McDonald’s where we met up with Bryan, Barath and Cheryl.
Despite the loud noise of children screaming and running all over the place (they were having a birthday party), we shared good stories and good laughs, as always. 🙂
Bryan with his ‘the butterfly’.
Barath with his double choc sundae.
Cheryl with her sudden funny screams. Haha.
I love you guys to bits ! 🙂

My 7 weeks of clinical attachment at HTAR ended last Wednesday.
I do not have to wake up an hour earlier every Tuesdays and Wednesdays anymore. What a relief !
My only worry now is about my group’s project which is barely even halfway done. I’m still trying to figure out how to work this SPSS thingy. 😕
My whole group (me included) don’t quite fancy the topic we were given. Too late to complain or change anything though. But I can foresee that our presentation won’t be up to the lecturers’ expectations. And ours, for that matter. Sad, yes but there’s not much we can do. Stupid topic. Ergh.

Don’t even get me started on my FYP. 😐
Sometimes I feel I’m just not cut out to do these kinda things.
In fact I feel that I’m not cut out to do anything pharmacy related. 😐
Sigh.

I’m posting some photos of me and my group members. They have been great, really.
We have gone through some emo moments where one by one of us would just disconnect from the group, but we also had lots and lots of happy giggling moments. 😉
Kak Mel sayang kamu semua. 🙂

Juju and I.

B and I.

Juli and I. (I know I look like a retard in this one, but who cares. 😛 )

There’s also Hasryn, the only guy in our group, but unfortunately there’s no photo of him and I available. 😛

Had lunch at Asiari, SACC last Thursday with Nanab and Zana. It was my first time there. I had a huge bowl of noodles which Zana recommended me to try. Sedap ! I forgot the name of the dish though. 😳
Ooooh, I also had yummy Soursop Frappe ! 😀

Ngoks ku. 🙂 (I look fat. Blergh.)

Nanab and I was at HTAR for our research yesterday. Blergh. Bloody exhausting ! Even before leaving Shah Alam, I felt half dead as I had to walk to and fro from the bus stop to my house twice in the hot sun because I forgot to bring along extra sanitary pads. That’s a 30 minute walk altogether including going up and down three flights of stairs. 😐
Then I had to deal with doctors brushing me off because they were too busy to fill in a bloody questionnaire. I don’t blame them la. That’s what they do. Pretend to be Always busy. 😈
Then the both of us got caught in the heavy rain for a bit.
Then the bus took its own sweet time to come.
Then….
😐

After all that, meeting up with Akey last night was what made my day. 😀
We had so much to catch up on, yet so little time. 😦
I had ABC while I was with her. I do not know why they put buah kundur in the ABC. Yucks. It was an inconvenience making sure I didn’t have any buah kundur(s) on my spoon before it goes in my mouth.

Akey, my love. 🙂

You would think that the ABC was enough to satisfy my sugar cravings, right?
Wrong.
When I got home I helped myself to 1/4 of a medium bar of Cadbury. 😐
I figured that my blood glucose level must have sky rocketed after everything I had.
So, I told myself that today the first thing I should do is measure my glucose level. But, I forgot.
I only measured it 2 hours after having Yong Tau Foo and some duku langsat. And, erm, Cadbury too. 😳
Glucose level 2 hours postprandial = 5.2mmol/L.
Okay what !
I think I have two more bars of Cadbury in the fridge. Haha. 😀

Lene’s not feeling too well. Poor thing.
My head’s not feeling too good either. It’s gotta be because of the weather.

Something’s just not right. Sigh.

xoxo

permit.

Is it really much easier to ask for forgiveness than to ask for permission ❓

xoxo

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