crush.

You’re reading this.
But you’re not really reading.
You think you understand.
But you actually don’t.
You seem to think you know.
But you don’t have a single clue.

With me it’s always something else.
It’s not always just that.
Or just this.

One day at a time.
I need to keep reminding myself.
No, wait. I can’t.
I need to take one hour at a time. Maybe one minute at a time.
Ergh.
One second maybe ?

I feel suffocated.

I have had plans.
I have had dreams.

But everything is in His hands.
I have learnt to accept that.
Can you ?

Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight and it’ll crush, hold it too loose and it’ll fly away.

I have come to realize that I don’t only hate being forced to eat.
As a matter of fact I despise being forced to do anything.
Period.
Who does anyway ?

………

What was spoken was uncalled for.
That was very insensitive of you.
All this is making me feel a bit apprehensive.

Daddy would tell me to recite Surah An-Nas in times like these.

I should pray more often.
Honestly, that’s only time I really feel at peace.

Darn it.
I have drifted so far away.
It isn’t too late to come back, right ?

Don’t answer that.
That’s not for you to decide.

Woah.
Time out, Melissa.
😐

xoxo