of mini and the simpler things.

I thank you for making it private.
You have saved me from all the trouble I would have to go through to stop myself.
You have saved me from all the pain.

But then again it’s all in the head actually.
I’d have to learn to be more firm with myself if I really want to be happy. Which I do, of course.

It’s unbelievable how I foolishly wasted all my time fretting about things that are not at all close to important.
There’s just so much more in this life than all the superficial things.
Life’s just not about grades.
Or how many cars you have.
Or even how many freckles or pimples you have.
Worrying is a bloody waste of time.
But I’m a worrywart. I’ve been like this since God knows when.
Will I be able to change that?

I’m in charge of my own future and the paths I take.
I’m starting afresh from now on.
Well, at least I shall try to.

We should take some time to sit back and enjoy the simpler things in life.
🙂

xoxo

2006, goodbye.

Glad to see 2006 go ( yes or no )?
~ Yes. I think.

Age turned in 2006?
~ 22.

Did you change your hair in 2006? How?
~ Yup. It’s in a new hue.

The best part of 2006?
~ Sabah vacation with the family.

The worst part of 2006?
~ Losing Mummy.

Did you make any new friends in 2006? Who?
~ Yup. Annisa, Putri, Tash and a few others.

Any new crushes in 2006? Who?
~ Yes, Daniel Craig. 😆

Do they know?
~ I wish. 😛

Who will you never forget?
~ Mummy.

Who did you wish you did not meet?
~ The mini man.

Did you have a boy/girlfriend in 2006?
~ Yes, we turned four this year actually.

Did you fall in love in 2006?
~ Yes, with 007. Haha.

Did you catch someone in a lie in 2006?
~ Yes.

Did you call them out?
~ Yes. Made no difference.

Did you get caught in a lie? What was it?
~ Yes. I lied about Lene falling asleep in front of the pc. And everyone was nudging like nobody’s business. While the both of us were laughing hysterically. Haha. 😆

Funniest moment of 2006?
~ Kaya Marin. 😉

Most embarrassing moment of 2006?
~Can’t think of one right now.

The funniest thing you saw on tv?
~When a guy actually had mistaken a Beyonce video clip for a Pussycat Dolls’ one. Stupid I tell you.

The funniest thing you heard on the radio?
~ Hitz.fm Gotcha calls?

Did you take any vacations in 2006? Where?
~ Yes. To Sabah, Cherating and Genting.

Any new hobbies of 2006?
~ Pump It Up ! 😉

Did you get a new job in 2006?
~ No.

Did you lose a job in 2006?
~ No.

Did you host a party in 2006?
~ No.

Did you get in any car accidents in 2006?
~ Nope. Alhamdulillah..

Did you get a ticket in 2006?
~ Haha. No. I don’t drive. Heee…

Were you ever arrested in 2006? Wanna say for what?
~ Nope!

Where did most of your money go?
~ Prepaid topups, outings and food.

What song will always remind you of 2006?
~ Christina Aguilera’s Hurt.

In 2006, did you lie to miss a day of work / school?
~ Yes.

Did you move in 2006?
~ Nope.

Did you wish on a shooting star in 2006?
~ Nope.

Has your wish come true?
~ Blergh.

Did you have a sleep over in 2006?
~ Nope. Wanted to though.

What’s the ringer on your cellphone?
~ Lily Allen’s Cheryl Tweedy.

Your favorite commercial of 2006?
~ Can’t think of any in particular but I definitely hate Digi’s stupid yellow people running all over the place ad.

Did you go to any concerts? Which ones?
~ Nope.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
~ You never know what you have until it’s they’re gone.

Happy New Year everyone !
Here’s to a safe and blissful 2007 !
😉

xoxo

blue skies and beaches.

First of all, do excuse me because this entry is sorta kinda all over the place.

The family and I just got back from Uncle Robert’s place. We had a hearty meal for lunch with delicious spaghetti, chicken and super yummy fruit salad! 🙂 I’m so stuffed.
Lene and I even had our hair ‘done’ by little JR. 😛
Oh, the four of us received Christmas gifts too. 😉

So yes, we arrived home yesterday evening from a three days and two nights stay in Cherating.
It felt good being able to take some time off away from everything.
I love the beach.
Even though I’m extremely terrified of the sea and not to forget the fact that I don’t even know how to swim, I always feel a sense of tranquility whenever I’m by the sea.
We didn’t do much roaming around but I enjoyed myself.
Click here for some photos.

I have finally met Diana. She came over on Boxing Day. We had a nice long talk. 🙂

Not to forget, Felicia’s birthday+Christmas celebration that night was a blast with singing, dancing and great company. I danced like there was no tomorrow and belted out half a tune. Or was it one and a half? 😛

And yes, CONGRATULATIONS Ursula.
I am so proud of you. *hugs*

Salam Aidiladha people.
Have a blessed Raya. 😉

xoxo

pump it up.

I have blisters on the soles of my feet and my knees hurt.

xoxo

sex and candy.

I vow to make things to work.
I vow to try my best.

xoxo

dear bryan…

I realize that this might be a little overdue, but welcome to WordPress my love !
😉

xoxo

union bay.

Christmas started with me waking up to a terrible tummy ache. I ran frantically to the toilet. I had diarrhea people. Of all days. I had to cancel my intentions if working out this morning. Sigh. But after two doses of Imodium, I was feeling better, just in time for lunch. 😉

We left for Aunt Thelma’s place at around noon. Arrived there shocked to see Aunt Mary in the condition she was just now. She looked as if she might have had a mild stroke, with her slurred speech and all. She couldn’t walk anymore, she had to be carried around if she wanted to go to the toilet or to bed. Otherwise she’ll be in her wheelchair. Her Alzheimer has worsen. She couldn’t recognize us and even asked where was Mummy. It was really sad.
As Christmas gifts, I received a few blouses and a pair of jeans from Aunt Maziey. The blouses weren’t exactly my size but they were okay. Aunt Thelma gave me Body Shop gift set which smells really nice. Strawberry ! I like ! 🙂

Yus has been back for almost two weeks now but we still haven’t had the chance to meet up. She has been pretty busy. Thankfully she’s back for good this time, so I still have time, InsyaAllah.
I so have to meet Akey and Diana before the hols end too !

I have to remember to fold my clothes tomorrow.
I don’t feel like socializing so much.

Here’s to hoping I sleep well tonight.
Goodnight.

xoxo

yellow.

Was out with Papa today. He has a new pair of shoes.

Christmas lunch tomorrow at Aunt Thelma’s, as usual.

It’ll never be the same anymore, will it?
Sigh.

Merry Christmas everyone.
Be jolly! 😉

xoxo

all i need for christmas is..

…a shrink you.
Yes, I want nothing else.
😦

xoxo

certificate.

Just got back from the lawyer’s office. We had to sign some papers. Hope everything goes well. Aamin.

I know this is like the forth post I’m posting today. Bear with me, people. I’m jobless right now. 😛

xoxo

bimbo-ish.

Barath’s surprise birthday party last night went according to plan. He was surprised! Or as he puts it, numb. 😛
We had Domino’s which I thought was delicious. Better than Shakey’s, anytime. There was cake too, of course. 🙂
It was fun talking, crying laughing and snapping pictures all night long. I had a good time, you guys. Happy 21st Birthday once again, Barath. 😉

Feli, I want pictures. Yesterday’s and the other day’s. 😛

So yeah, work’s over. Here’s what Mr Kenny Oon, the pharmacist at Pharmacy Aman wrote about me.

Pleasant personality and approachable to patients in the pharmacy. Willing to learn and has the right attitude for a retail pharmacist.

Thank you so much Kenny.
Thank you Kak Ina and Kak Ida, for putting up with my banyak cakap for a good 15 days. 🙂
I did learn quite a bit during this three weeks of training. And contrary to popular belief (hehe), I did do some other work besides checking glucose, cholesterol and blood pressure levels and reading magazines. 😛
I now know how to tally the stocks, how to order goods and how to know how much you need to order based on the demand of the products. I learnt more brand names, instead of just having generic names in my head. Plus I can advice patients better now, I think. Overall it was really good exposure. 😉

I agree with Deedee, that “Sometimes e people that matters e most says things that they don’t mean to say”
But there are times what they say might have been uncalled for. And you get hurt, especially when it concerns something you feel inferior about.
But then again, maybe you just have other things on your mind which are bothering you that even the slightest joke or remark might trigger a whirlwind of emotions.
OH MY GOD, what the hell am I trying to say here??

Whatever it is, it’s always wise to think before you speak, not only about what you’re about to say but also about the person you’re speaking to.
That’s a lesson I, myself should learn too.

xoxo

ur su la.

Thank you for sticking up for me.
I love you.

xoxo

breakdown.

I saw it coming but why did it still hit me that hard? Why am I still sad beyond words? Why am I still crying when I know there’s nothing I can do about it?
I know I disappointed so many people.
The worst is I disappointed myself and I feel awful.
I’m not being emotional. I know I have the right to feel the way I am right now.
I put in so much effort, but still almost everything went wrong.
In a way I feel it’s so unfair that just because of one bloody thing, everything else went haywire.
I’m so ashamed. I’m so heartbroken.

I just wanna get this over and done with.

Nobody knows how terrible I’m feeling right now.

I’m not envious. Distrustful? Maybe. I’m just terrified that maybe one day you’ll just pack up your bags and leave.

And yes Gan, you owe me Baskin Robbins, unfortunately. 😥

Forgive me, but I don’t really like my stupid and useless self right now. Thank you.

xoxo

kaya marin.

Love you.
🙂

bye bye bye.

Had Lunch at Quan’s yesterday with these people. 🙂

I ordered the Cordon Bleu even though Dayana warned me it wasn’t all that. To be specific, she said it was less cheesy and more chicken-ish. And err, it was exactly like that. Not very appealing to my taste buds, that’s for sure. I need Secret Recipe, now.
We watched Eragon after lunch. Feli, Cheryl and I found the cheesy lines in the movie a bit humorous. I think we were the only ones in there who were laughing in the cinema. And not to forget, sleeping. Cheryl dozed off for a bit. 😛
But the movie wasn’t that bad la.
And guess what, after the movie we headed back to Quan’s to have ice cream! Dayana even forgot she had dinner plans with her family! I’m sorry Deedee, it totally slipped my mind too.
So I think we had a great time, at least I know I did. Terima kasih sayang-sayang ku.

I’m meeting the boyfriend in a while and I’m going to have to watch Eragon again. I forgot that I promised him that I would watch that particular movie with him. Sigh.

I’m feeling positive today. I thought about a lot of things before I went to bed last night. Oooh, and I watched The Devil Wears Prada on my Zen too! Sorry Lene, I thought of just ‘previewing’ it but I just couldn’t stop. 😛

I’m trying.

xoxo

blue christmas.

Had dinner with Annisa today at Colonial Times, The Curve. I had Pasta with Minced Lamb and she had Salmon Tikka. Yummy !
I had a lovely time, thank you Ann. 🙂
The Curve had huge Christmas trees with beautiful blue ornaments !

Right now, I’m too tired to think about unnecessary rubbish such as the mini man. I wish I could be like this everyday, minus the tired part.

xoxo

98.7%

Why the fuck is WordPress so fucking slow nowadays??
Damn it.

I don’t get it. What’s up with you? You stupid ungrateful prick.

And you, so if he keeps his promise this time, you’ll finally get what you want.
Then what? You’re leaving aren’t you? I know that’s what you have been wanting to do all the while.

Fuck you and you!

The only person I wanna be with right now has left.
You left too soon.
😥

xoxo

you ‘rocks’?

I sorta kinda gave Dayana a WordPress tutorial this evening.
Welcome to WP sayang! 😀

I’m going through the whole phase again. Yes, again. It’s sickening.
She’s perfect.
The only thing that’s consoling me is the fact that her grammar is worse than mine. At least I think so la.
So there, one flaw.
😦

I’m having a gastric attack. Pain okay.
But I just had cheese naan so I think I’d be fine otherwise I’ll just pop some antacids.

xoxo

slack.

WordPress has been really slow for the past few weeks and it’s really irking me.
It puts me off blogging at times.

Oh well, I really have nothing much to write about anyway.

Since today was a public holiday for Selangor, I only had to work until 1.30pm, which was cool.
What was uncool was that I actually misread the readings of one of the customer’s glucose levels today. I told her it was 3.01mmol/L when it was actually 30.1mmol/L! Fortunately my classmate realized my mistake and corrected me, if not I would have gone on saying that she had a healthy glucose level and didn’t have to worry.
Terrible huh?
Eight days to go, then I’m free.

I prefer to avoid hanging out with people I feel inferior to. It has always been like this.
I’m always afraid that I just won’t fit in. Afraid that I wouldn’t have anything interesting to talk about. I’m not much of a conversationalist you know.
What if I look like crap next to them?
Thus, I end up making up excuses not to go.
Sigh.
It sucks feeling this way all the time.

People would tell me to just be myself. But what if I don’t like myself?
I bore people.

I know this is unhealthy self criticism but sorry, I just can’t help it.

So yeah, I need my best friend, thank you.

xoxo

unpretty.

I’m still not so sure why we’re holding on.

“My outsides look cool, my insides are blue” -TLC

Is it true that if we laugh too much, we’ll end up crying?
I don’t want to believe.
But it has happened to me too many times to be disregarded.

Will someone please take me to my happy place right now? Please.

xoxo