^torn…

One minute I'm like….

How many times

Are you gonna apologize about the same thing?

And how many times can I take you back?
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong (When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong, yeah)
I thought maybe if I started prayin'
That we would get better, but
When I would pray the answer would always come back to me bein' done
But we are so hard headed when we're in love
So I

[Chorus]I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on now
I gotta move on now
It's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take his bad habit no more

I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live, while your in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn't think about me) to call
And then when I get mad you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone, to the pictures that I saw
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've takin all I could take (I've takin all I could take)
But the way I live has gotta change, oh
[Chorus]

Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you was just to blind to see
Past, all of the pain they was causin' you
Ladies do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right things that you should do
Then it's time to make a change
So I
[Chorus]

('Bad Habit' by Destiny's Child)

and another minute i'm like…

Look into my eyes – you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart – search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do – I do it for you

Look into my heart – you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am – take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do – I do it for you

There's no love – like your love
And no other – could give more love
There's nowhere – unless you're there
All the time – all the way

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you – I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you – Ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
Everything I do – I do it for you

('Everything I do (I do it for you)' by Bryan Adams)

nothing's fine…I'm torn.

xoxo

scribbling thoughts…

I got 8/10 for last Friday’s quiz. I think that’s pretty okay for someone who studied for two hours for it. *Wink*

I have a Pharmacy Practice tomorrow, a Physical Pharmacy test this Thursday , a Drugs in Sports test this Friday and a Social Pharmacy presentation this Saturday and then it’s my one week of so called study leave. My finals will be starting on the 21st. Euww, gives me the shivers!!

Someone very dear to me is giving me the silent treatment because of me and my boyfriend and it's making me really sad. I know that person is only worried about me, only wants the best for me and doesn’t want me to get hurt again but I hope if that person is reading this (you know who you are) I want you to know that I miss you. Please don’t ruin our beautiful friendship just because of this! Please give him a chance to prove himself before you say and judge him. He seems really sincere this time. Everyone makes mistakes. But if I, myself can find it in my heart to TRY to forgive him and give him a chance to make things up to me, why can’t you? It isn’t easy for me, that I won’t deny, but I am trying my best. True friends should stick with each other no matter what, right?Allah SWT is giving him one more chance to make things up, if he screws up again let’s let Him deal with him. But for the time being let’s just give him a chance, okay? Our friendship is not worth sacrificing only because of this.

Sigh.

I MISS MARC LIKE HELL! sob sob…

xoxo

procrastination…

I’m exhausted to the max! All I wanna do now is sleep. For a few days. Can I? All this rushing around is really draining my energy, plus the loads of lab reports and assignments I’ve yet to complete don’t really help either. I’m lazy. I procrastinate. I always leave things to the last minute. Used to love the adrenaline rush but now I’m too tired. Sigh.
I have a quiz tomorrow and I haven’t started studying as usual. 'Social Pharmacy and Communication'. Oh boy, will I be able to finish studying by tonight?? I’ll have to make sure I do I guess.
Speaking of quizzes, my final exams are just around the corner. 18 days more to be exact! And yeah, haven’t started studying either. I better buckle up. I wanna improve my grades this semester. Sob sob.
Think I better start reading up my notes for tomorrow’s quiz.

xoxo

words…

translating….

Sayang, i love u so much…that's the main reason i want u back…i can't live without you…you're my life…i realize i made a mistake…i'm sorry…n now i'm gonna prove to u this time it's for real…
Sayang, u're my life..my soul..i can't live without u…when we broke up…everytime i breathe…it would hurt..cause i've realized before this i've breathed only to be with u….my dreams were empty…my steps were unclear n all over…my life was meaningless sayang…so now i want us to go back to where we were before…in fact i want our relationship to be better than before…we've planned our future together…n i don't want it to go down the drain…cause when i saw u the first time at the corridor…i knew u were the one…my true love…n i want to spend the rest of my life with u…i know it's hard for u…but do trust me…cause this time i'll make sure that we'll be together forever…
I love u so much sayang…hope our relationship lasts till the end of time….

mmm….
nothing else to say.

xoxo