under my umbrella, ella ella eh eh eh.

After sitting for my Toxicology paper last Friday, I have learnt that I should never, I repeat, NEVER believe in the so-called revision focus tips lecturers give. They’re bullshit, really.
Four more papers to go. Next one this Friday. Pharmaceutical Quality Assurance.
Haven’t revised anything. I’m actually more worried about next week’s papers, especially Central Nervous System Pharmacotherapeutics and Cancer Pharmacotherapeutics. The marks I have accumulated for both the subjects’ tests and assignments along this semester were pretty okay, so I cannot afford to not do well okay for the finals. Hmm, yet, I still am taking my own sweet time to study.
There’s a big difference between being relaxed and just being plain lazy.

Turning 23 has somehow opened my eyes to how terrible (can’t think of a nicer word and I’d be lying if I used the word ‘bad’) I have become as a person. I still remember, a few years ago, Mummy told me that I have changed. And I don’t think she meant for the better. I denied what she said, almost immediately.

Even when the boyfriend told me, a year and a half ago, that I’m not the same person I was we first got together, I was quick to deny what he said and defend myself.

It’s only know that I realized what Mummy meant.
And it’s really too late to apologize, isn’t it?

I hope it’s not too late to do something about it.
For the sake of myself and the people I still have around.
😦
The question is, am I really able to?

Hmm, I miss Adam Daniel Iman already. I miss waking up to his adorable and smiling face saying, “Icaaa!” which is Melissa in baby language if you all didn’t know. 😛

For some odd reason, Rihanna’s Umbrella is playing on and on in my head. 😕

I want a day out with the siblings.

xoxo

of push up bras and stupid rumours.

Boyfriend: Bucuk nak tahu, Papa baru tahu budak-budak class Papa buat cerita yang papa tergila-gila kan si Ardila tu.
Girlfriend: (Annoyed) Hah?? Kenapa pulak?? Mesti Papa suka pandang-pandang dia kan!
Boyfriend: Eiii, tak la. Papa tak pandang dia langsung ! Dalam class pun Papa duduk ngan si Raihan tu kan. Tak tau kenapa. Cerita tu dah lama tapi Papa baru je tahu. Papa cerita Kat Raihan tu pun dia pun pelik, gelakkan Papa.
Girlfriend: Patut la dia dah tak senyum kat Baby dah, lepas dia nampak Papa ngan Baby. Ingat tak Baby cerita?
Boyfriend: Entah-entah dia yang tergila-gila kan Papa.
Girlfriend: Maybe la. Huh, rosak je image Baby.
Boyfriend: Kenapa Baby punya image pulak rosak??
Girlfriend: Ye la, obviously dia orang tahu Papa dengan Baby, but still boleh tergila-gila kan orang lain. Macam Baby ni teruk sangat and mean nothing je. (makes sad face)
Boyfriend: (Gave the girlfriend a weird look) Mana ada la !
Girlfriend: Hmm, tak ada ke orang buat cerita Papa tergila-gila kan Baby??
Boyfriend: Alah, semua orang dah tau Papa memang tergila-gila kan Baby.

The last sentence gave me a sort of tingling feeling in my heart. Haha.
But I don’t get why such a story was made up in the first place. Ergh.
Call me immature but I just don’t like it.

xoxo

lost and empty. still.

And I know that it’s a wonderful world
But I can’t feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it’s a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you’re here, here with me
-James Morrison.

They say time heals everything,
But I’m still waiting
-Dixie Chicks.

xoxo

do i mean anything to you?

There are times that I really wonder if the people around me are for real.
😐

xoxo

i’m so sleepy i think i can sleep for days.

As some of you might already know, I officially turned 23 last Friday. The boyfriend’s family invited me over to their place. The boyfriend surprised me with Secret Recipe’s Chocolate Indulgence. Nyum! 🙂

That’s Papa’s lil’ sis, Mira at the back. And that cute lil fella is baby Adam ! 😀

Thank you Papa. 🙂

I am a year older.
…..

I actually had a lot to write on, but I just lost the mood.
Bye.

xoxo

four iced lemon teas.

A McChicken + 12 pieces of Chicken McNuggets + One and half packs of Medium French Fries (maybe more) + One Iced Lemon Tea = SATIATION (beyond imagination).

Crazy.

xoxo

april baby tagged !

Tagged by Gan (wheee!). Haha.
I should be studying now, you know. 😛

April 1, 1997

1) How old were you? 12 years and 11 months.

2) Where did you go to school? Hillcrest.

3) Where did you work? Was doing housework, mostly. Haha.

4) Where did you live? Gombak.

5) Where did you hang out? In my room most of the time.

6) Did you wear glasses? Nope, but I think I wished I did at that time. I kinda thought I would look cool. 😛

7) Who was your best friend? Myself.

8 ) How many tattoos did you have? None.

9) How many piercings did you have? Two.

10) What car did you drive? Haha.

11) Had you been to a real party? Yeah ! My 12th birthday party at Mcdonald’s ! 😀

12) Had your heart broken? Nope. But I think I broke some hearts.

April 1, 2002

1) How old were you? 17 years and 11 months.

2) Where did you go to school? Hmm, just got outta school !

3) Where did you work? I don’t think I was working at that time. I ran away from the part time job I was doing. 😀

4) Where did you live? Gombak.

5) Where did you hang out? It depends on the people I hang out with.

7) Who was your best friend? Akey, Salehah, Yusrina and Diana.

8 ) Who was your regular-person crush? Can’t remember.

9) How many tattoos did you have? None.

10) How many piercing did you have? Seven.

11) What car did you drive? Haha.

12) Had you had your heart broken? Yeah !

April 1, 2007

1) How old are you? 22 years and 11 months.

2) Where do you work? Not working. Yet.

3) Where do you live? Still in Gombak ! Yeay !

4) Do you wear glasses? Nope. But I have a feeling I’m gonna have to, soon.

5) Where do you hang out? Again, it depends.

6) Who is your best friend? Akey, Nazri, Diana, Yus, Adam, The Gombak Gang and a few others. Sorry I couldn’t name just one. 😛

8 ) Do you talk to your old friends? Yup.

9) How many piercing do you have? Two.

10) How many tattoos? None.

11) What kind of car do you drive? Haha.

12) Has your heart been broken? YES.

taggingggggggg….

1. Lene

2. Feli

3. Dayana

4. Cheryl

5. Bryan

6. Baby

Just for fun. You guys don’t have to do this if you don’t want to. Hehe.

xoxo

pa 52.

The Ethics and Forensic Pharmacy paper this morning was DISASTROUS I tell you. Gosh!
The objective questions which I was actually pretty worried about in the first place, turned out to be easier (but still tough) than the essay questions, the part which was open-book!
Insufficient time was just one reason why I felt like ripping the question papers apart.

Oh, and it’s a only ONE credit hour paper!
Ergh.

SIGH.

Toxicology paper this Friday.

DOUBLE SIGH.

I’m hungry.

xoxo

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hba1c.

That was the worst Pharmacy Practice paper I have ever sat for.
😦

xoxo

the brain’s not the only organ in pain.

A really good whole body massage would do wonders right now. 😦

xoxo

candy man has psychic powers!

OMIGOSH.
I think Daddy’s psychic.
No joke.

He’s out for his jog, and I just received an sms from him asking, “You want Pan Mee?”

😯

Woah! 😆

xoxo

baby corn.

It’s 8:07am and I haven’t slept a wink.
Was online with Halmy discussing Toxicology tutorials until a few minutes ago.
Gee, I kinda miss staying up until morning with him at McDonald’s to study (and chit chat. and laugh. and cry). 🙂

I want Pan Mee.
I think I’ve had Pan Mee more than thrice over the past two weeks.
Who cares. I still want Pan Mee. Pedas.

Uh oh, my head’s getting heavy. But I just can’t afford to waste time and go to bed. There’s just too much to cover !
Damn you exams.
Damn you people who think you were so bloody intelligent when you came up with the idea of having exams !
Damn you long, incomprehensible notes !
Damn you highlighter ! I just bought you and you’re almost out of ink??
Damn you growling stomach ! Shut up ! You’ve had more than enough, okay. You had burger, fries and cake, remember? Grrr. 👿

😯

😕

Okay, I guess I should get some sleep.
Good night morning everyone.

xoxo

comot and yummy.

The boyfriend and I had a mini pre-birthday celebration today at Burger King, One Utama since we have to sit for our ‘much anticipated’ exam papers on both our birth dates and in between the dates (our birthdays are 5 days apart).
It was actually a first time for us, celebrating each other’s birthdays with cake. Uhuh, never before okay. So I guess we were pretty excited about it. Yeah, excited about having a cake. Not just a slice or two. A whole cake! Just for the both of us! Woohoo! 😕

First I thought of buying Baker’s Cottage’s oh-so-yummy Warmest Chocolate Cake but when we arrived there I saw this La Opera cake (chocolate and coffee cake) and thought that we should give it a try. The cake had this huge empty space on it so I thought that both our names could be written there. Just nice, I thought to myself.
But, it turned out that the cake had some kind of sprinkles (nuts, maybe?) covering that particular huge space of the cake, that they couldn’t write our names there. So, much to our disappointment, our names were written on the smaller space of the cake, where there was icing. It was so small that we couldn’t even get our names clearly on camera. 😦

Happy Birthday who and who?

Hmm, so we were less excited about the cake, or at least I was. After having our meals and watching (and laughing hysterically) comedians, Russell Peters and Pablo Francisco shows on my Zen, the time came to blow the candles and cut the got-lotsa-space-but-cannot-use cake.
Who am I trying to kid, I was still excited as hell! 😀

Wheee ! 😀

Ohh, but how did the cake taste like? 😐
We only had one slice each, and it was not only because we were stuffed with the French Chicken and French fries we had earlier. 😐
And considering the fact that I was the one who enthusiastically told Papa I would be the one to bring the remainder of the cake home before even buying the cake, I had to, yes, bring the cake home. Greed/gluttony is bad I tell you.

 

That’s all we could eat. 😐

But all in all, it was a happy happy day for me. 😀
Thank you so much my love.
Love you.

xoxo

dejected.

It’s just terrible to feel helpless and to know that you’re not able to help/cheer up or make things okay for the people who have always been there for you. It’s dejecting when the right words just don’t seem to be coming out from your mouth.

I suck.

xoxo

yeah right.

Friendster Horoscope for April 17, 2007
Taurus (Apr 20 – May 20)

The Bottom Line

You are entering a fun time — the world will suddenly feel like an amusement park!

In Detail

You are about to enter a placid, worry-free time, when fun and feeling good are the name of the game. The world will suddenly feel like a giant amusement park, with stimulating sights and thrilling rides at every turn. This is a great time to begin exploring that new hobby, interest or career opportunity you’ve been thinking about. Your brain is open to new ideas and new ways of doing things. This proverbial old dog is ready to learn some new tricks!

xoxo

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soft and buttery.

Was on Yahoo Messenger chatting with Deedee when she told me that she liked everything about KFC except the chicken. Yes, CHICKEN. I had a hard time understanding why she didn’t like Kentucky’s Fried CHICKENS ! But the best part was yet to come.

m e l i s s a: im a BIG kfc fan
m e l i s s a: ok
m e l i s s a: then how if u go there
m e l i s s a: u dont eat the chicken?
dayana: i know u r
dayana: thats y im tellin u
dayana: i order e set
dayana: and eat everything
dayana: but e chicken
dayana: tapi kadang kadang
dayana: untuk jage muke
dayana: makan sikit ayamm
dayana: then e rest of e chicken bagi hisyam
dayana: or my bro
dayana: i LOVE E BUM
dayana: so sedap
dayana: buttery and soft
dayana: hmmm
dayana: hmmmmm
dayana: hmmmmm
dayana: pastu letak mashed potato
dayana: pastu letak that sayur
dayana: ulalalal
dayana: e BUN
dayana: MUAHAHHAHA
dayana: E BUM PULAK
m e l i s s a: THE BUM
m e l i s s a: ??
m e l i s s a: *ROFL emoticon*
m e l i s s a: *ROFL emoticon*
m e l i s s a: u LOVE THE BUM !
dayana: soft n buttery pulak tu
dayana: dont mess
m e l i s s a: *ROFL emoticon*
m e l i s s a: funny ok !
dayana: yeah i know
dayana: coz i read back
dayana: brsemangat i declared my love to e bum

Letak mashed potato and sayur lagi okay! 😆
Sorry Deedee, I just had to. Still sangat kelakar la ! 😆
xoxo

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